I have always considered myself a pretty patient person, but lately I find myself questioning God sometimes about those things that I thought would've happened by now that seem like they just may not happen at all in my life.
I've always considered myself patient because those little things like sitting in traffic, waiting in line at an amusement park or at the DMV or staying on hold on the phone for a long time don't bother me at all. I'm good at waiting in those situations.
But, having to be patient while watching other people "move ahead of me in line" is not quite so easy. Imagine standing in line at Six Flags and watching someone who got in line after you, get to the front before you. Not fair, right?
I lack trust and faith in God at times. I doubt him. I am a thirty-one year old single female who has had few boyfriends, does not like to date much and doesn't forsee the opportunity to meet the man of my dreams. At the same time, I wish to have children and truthfully cannot see that happening before that clock that everyone talks about runs out. And yet, I see many around me who are younger (and thus started life after me) who get to "move ahead" of me.
I am now reading about the various women in the Bible. It is fascinating to me to see their imperfections and mistakes and their doubts and how still God worked in their lives. I just started it so really I've just read about Eve and Sarah. Two things stand out about these women. First, be content and focus on all that I do have and not what I don't have and second, God does have a plan and I should do best not to get in His way.
Be patient.
So, my prayer is for God to shower me with patience and contentment. For He is Good!
Philipians 4:11-13: For I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want. I can do everything through Him who gives me strength.
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